Catching My Own Drift

I am a lover of music – all types.  If there is a message in the song, I can usually find some form of appreciation for it.  One song that has been on my mind lately is Michael Jackson’s Man in the Mirror.  The gist of the song is that if you desire to make the world better, you’ve got to start with yourself.  Over the past few weeks, I’ve been engaged in a battle with myself.  What is my responsibility to my family, my friends, my community, those I’ve yet to meet?  What is my responsibility to myself? Was I ready to look at myself and be honest about what I thought, felt, saw..? Would I let fear rule or would faith dominate? Would regret and remorse regulate my course or would belief in the redemptive power of God to transform the human spirit/mind/will triumph? It is normal for people to start to make resolutions as we enter into a new year.  However, this year I’ve decided I need to do more than simply resolve to make something happen.  I need to make a promise to myself and find those that will help hold me accountable to make 2012 the most unforgettable, spectacular year ever. I need to do more than write the vision; I’ve got to act on it.  Consequently, I’ve deemed 2012 as “The Year of the Comeback!!!” 

This year, in fact the past few years, have been filled with difficulties, disappointments, disillusions, - in other words there were many, many moments when I felt just plain - DISSED.  But somehow there remains a glimmer of hope, there is something within that inspires me to continue to believe.  The past few weeks have been especially difficult and certain transitions have left me feeling as if I’ve lost my grounding.  I had to find the strength and courage to move beyond this space.

The phrase, “Do you catch my drift?” is used when asking a person if they understand what you are saying.  I found myself in a battle with myself and had to literally speak to myself. I literally stood in the mirror and had a conversation with myself. I had to have my own come to Jesus meeting. I had to do what the bible says and bring those negative thoughts captive – making them subject to the spirit of God in me.  I had to remind myself that in spite of what I may be feeling, I remain the apple of God’s eye.  I had to encourage myself to move beyond emotions and walk into purpose. Essentially, I had to catch my own drift. I approach this upcoming year with great expectation, but please understand there is some fear and trembling that accompanies me.  Nonetheless, instead of reverting to old habits of allowing fear to stop me in my tracks, I will use it to propel me into purpose. 

So this is my end of an old year, beginning of the New Year wish to each and every one of you – I pray that you would start with the woman/man in the mirror, find your source of strength and “Catch Your Own Drift.”

Abounding in Love and Growing in Grace,

Veronica